xoder | Suck

So the bad stuff:

I lost my RIT ID (replaced it for the fee of $5)
Did questionably well on an Electronics exam
Am sad for no good reason
Have a complex variables exam later tonight
Have no ambition to do anything
Disallowed comments on an entry for the first time
Fucked up a portion of my /usr partition in linux. Don't really know what to do. fsck-ed it, fixed a lot of things that were being misreported, however I'm still getting "Input/Output Error" whenever I try to read or write certain directories (like /usr/share)^a.
Pataki won again (although, that's better, I suppose, than Golisano)
I failed to find timeslots for taking my road test at home
I haven't been writing, for either publication
I've been pissing people off
I've been snappy and drained
did I mention I don't want to do anything¹

You know the song Papercut by Linkin Park? [Hush, to those who do not like LP] Well, the song speaks of a face inside that laughs when you fuck stuff up. It speaks of a part of you that likes to see you fail. I think my "face inside" is not right beneath my skin, but at the surface. I have become him. Failure is the only thing possible now, and the face inside is the one that wants to succeed, and can only look out with sadness.

I have to study. But my chest feels like it will implode from emptyness. I have lab soon.

The good stuff:

I'm alive and healthy
I did pretty well on a diffeq quiz

Of course, that doesn't mean that I'll be able to do well on the diffeq exam friday.

study, study, study

PETER

^a Probably came when I asked windows to format the high windows drive.
¹ Although, it would seem that I actually do want to accomplish something, just I don't have the will/focus/resolve to do it.