Lunacon, and other stuff

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Okay, with any luck this will be a long entry. If you have better things to do, go do them.

In a few moments I will be heading to my last class of the day and some things will change. Maybe a lot of things.

But first: LUNACON
Friday: Skipped Linear Systems 1 to depart. zsparke, bunbunsbitch and myself left RIT ca. 12:30, I think. Ate, talked, rode/drove. Picked up Burton (zsparke's b/f). Picked up orangecream from SUNY Bing. Rode, drove, talked, ate. Made it to the Escher Hilton, checked in, dropped off stuff. It was wonderful to see everyone again.
Saturday: Well, went to RHPS. Left early because of various reasons. Woke up. Went to a panel. Wrote my villanelle (partly during [on second thought, never mind]'s messing around session). Didn't go to Penguincon. Saw and spoke with Eric S. Raymond. Yes, that Eric S. Raymond. Bought H2G2 DVD. And Buttons. Most everyone was at parties, but still got to see people.
Sunday: Woke up, saw people. Packed, left.

I could go into more detail, but I don't think I will.

It was good. I didn't have the little "lets feel sorry for myself" bout I had last year when everyone was inebriated. Seeing everyone was good and joyful.

And now, I come back to finish my Electronics HW. And I'm already missing one. I'm so screwed. I just don't get it. I listen to him, I do the note thing, I work the problems, and I just don't get it.
This is an elementary course in my major. I haven't gotten better than a C in any such courses other than Intro to Digital Design (which no one should get lower than a B in, ever).

Which leads me to my plans for after Linear Systems today. I'm going to go see my advisor and discuss changing my major. I need to stay above a 3.0 this quarter, so I might just withdraw from Electronics 2.

But change it to what? I don't really have any good ideas. So far I have considered: CS, IT, and English. Obviously the last in that list would require a change of schools, the first would probably be just as hard if not harder than EE, and the middle would be just embarrassing.
Any suggestions?
I could be like my dentist. He gave up on EE because it was too hard, too.
Gods that sounds so pathetic. I feel like a complete jackass for switching majors because "its too hard." I believe nothing is too hard to be understood, just that it takes awhile. Or at least I used to be like that. I remember when, in elementary school, I was smart. Junior High, I was nobody's fool. High School was tricky, but trickier for others. Now I'm at the bottom third of my major's barrel (or so it feels, maybe worse). And its just not good enough. I just can't keep up.

So, please. Suggestions? Tips? Kicks in the ass?

Gods, I'm such a failure.

PETER


"There's no such thing as a failure who keeps trying" -- Blues Traveler, "Just Wait"

Comments

comments

[zsparke.livejournal.com]

1. if you do switch, make sure you switch it to something you like. my input, you're not a cs or it person.

2. In the words of Kim to another EE, "If I can do it, you can do it. Don't let them keep you from getting the degree you want."

3. I see that there are a few things you could do. With the exception of this class that has you worried, I think you could work harder.
Think Modern Physics. You were awesome in a few minutes time. If you spent more, I think you could have been more awesome and get an A. I do acknowledge that I do not know how much work you really put into things, but remember all those hours of you trying to not do your homework? If you had let yourself forget that you wanted to not do the work you could have been uber productive. Hell, you out did me with less time put into work, no?
Perhaps you don't want to work more. If that is the case, than as I said before, RIT is not the place for you.

4. I could perhaps give you more input, but I think it would be rude when you are not here to respond to them.

Peter, you are not a failure. Am I a failure? As I recall I'm doing worse than you are. I am not a failure, not even close. The only thing I have failed at is being happy and successful here. I wish it could be different but it is not.
I do not see you as a failure. You are not a failure.

Suggestions: before you say that your major is too hard for you, take other classes in EE. Evaluate if there are things that you are willing to try to improve on or change. Perhaps a time management or work ethic change.

From what you have said to me, you are in EE because it interests you. I think you would make a good EE. I think that with your life goals you may want to consider trying your hardest to do well in EE, graduating, then if you really want to go into English you can. I don't want you to look back on this decision later and think less of yourself for it. I don't want you to be able to say later that you ran away because it was too hard and there were things that you woulda/coulda/shoulda done and really see yourself as a failure for it. Perhaps another university would be better for you in EE.

[b55b55.livejournal.com]

Peter, you should be in the major that you realy want to be in.
Studing whatever subject that you find most interesting. Better to work really hard and do alright in something that you love and will want to do for the rest of your life than switch to something that you hate but can coast through.

So yeah. Think realy hard about what you really want to do. Maybe it's the major, or the school, or maybe you're just having a crappy quarter (assembly made me want to switch majors). What part of EE interested you and why?

I don't realy thing CS is what you want to do -- did you like the C/C++ they taught you? What aspesct of EE do you dislike? -- I suppose you could do EE-tech.

I'll poke you later.