Wasted Daylight
Feb. 22nd, 2003 06:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xoderSo. I woke up naturally around 12:45. Ate breakfast. Went to sleep.
Woke up again around 5:45. I virtually missed all the daylight for today. I'm going to have a bitch of a time falling asleep tonight.
Just tried to start playing my Gate Keepers 21 rips. All the subs are in Chinese. BUGGERY. I need to get a fucking DC client that works in *i*x. Any tips? (DC++ in wine just breaks if I run it twice.) (Oh, and no, "Why don't you just use Windows, like everyone else?" posts. My computer is not ruled by majority, I am the Dictator!)
Id-less existence is possible. Just ask the authors of Why God Won't Go Away. However, it doesn't last long. I think it would be really nice to live without want. Not that every desire of mine would be satisfied, but instead, that I would desire nothing.
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faboo is driving over to bring myself and codepoet to Tom's fooding.
Toodles.
Woke up again around 5:45. I virtually missed all the daylight for today. I'm going to have a bitch of a time falling asleep tonight.
Just tried to start playing my Gate Keepers 21 rips. All the subs are in Chinese. BUGGERY. I need to get a fucking DC client that works in *i*x. Any tips? (DC++ in wine just breaks if I run it twice.) (Oh, and no, "Why don't you just use Windows, like everyone else?" posts. My computer is not ruled by majority, I am the Dictator!)
Id-less existence is possible. Just ask the authors of Why God Won't Go Away. However, it doesn't last long. I think it would be really nice to live without want. Not that every desire of mine would be satisfied, but instead, that I would desire nothing.
Anyways,
faboo is driving over to bring myself and codepoet to Tom's fooding.Toodles.
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Date: 2003-02-24 09:04 am (UTC)A more attainable goal might be to live such that you were not compelled by your desires. When you realize longing, accept it, feel it, decide if it's something productive or destructive, and respond. Then let it go. Take a deep breath, and move on.
It is not easy. The best advice I know is to begin regulating how you express yourself -- the face you put on towards the world ultimately becomes indistinguishable from who you actually are. If you devote a substantial part of your time to talking about how bad your mental state is, or what an annoyance your existance is to everyone else, that will ultimately become truth.
It's sort of like posture: slouch every day, and your spine will become crooked and weak. Struggle to maintain proper bearing, and you'll be flexible and strong, and not withered and tired all the time.
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Date: 2003-02-24 10:47 am (UTC)So I live a cramped, tense existance, afraid to expose myself to anyone?
No thanks.
Oh, and thanks for mentioning posture, I keep forgetting. Of course, with my neck all fucked up from my fall last night, its a little tricky getting my head on straight.
be well
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