Rationalization
Jun. 25th, 2002 01:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xoderThe reason for that past outburst:
I suppose I always thought that somewhere along the line, I would do something great for humanity.
Of course, I'm nowhere near bright enough for anything like that. There are 6 billion people on this planet, at at most 20 thousand of them are ijin. I'm not smart enough to make a new device or method thats good. I'm not talented enough to entertain or achieve.
So then maybe, I could eek out an existance, and pretend it matters.
But I can't lie. I refuse to lie to myself that much. And I know that I will make a bad genetic parent, so yeah.
I don't matter.
Let me be
I suppose I always thought that somewhere along the line, I would do something great for humanity.
Of course, I'm nowhere near bright enough for anything like that. There are 6 billion people on this planet, at at most 20 thousand of them are ijin. I'm not smart enough to make a new device or method thats good. I'm not talented enough to entertain or achieve.
So then maybe, I could eek out an existance, and pretend it matters.
But I can't lie. I refuse to lie to myself that much. And I know that I will make a bad genetic parent, so yeah.
I don't matter.
Let me be
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Date: 2002-06-25 06:15 pm (UTC)