Did you know that I'm stupid?
Dec. 9th, 2001 01:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xoderIn my last post I said something which hurt someone. I didn't mean to hurt you, and I truly am sorry for it. You wanted so much more from me than my body, and that's a good thing. I was talking about how it would be nice to try the exclusive wanting of my body. Just for a little bit, for a little fun (and maybe it wouldn't be fun, but at least I'd find that out for myself).
I think its a bad sign when your own father tells you to get a life. I thought I actually had friends up here and I spent time with them. I thougth I went out and did things with people. I guess I don't. I guess I'm just a hermit who does nothing but sit at the computer typing up useless messages over AIM and LJ to people who he deludes himself to be his friends. In reality, what are they? Mostly people who pity his friendless existance and are willing to lend an ear to make him feel better.
What is it he wants me to do? Go out and get drunk and laid? Is that the social life he wants? No. He's told me as much.
So what do I want? I want friends. I have them. I want a romantic relationship. I'm waiting for spring quarter to pursue that (you know what they say about springtime...).
So what does it matter that I don't go out all day and night? Why should anyone care? Y'all have your own problems to deal with, don't go inventing mine!
PETER
P.S. Sorry for not posting yesterday, I was busy.
I think its a bad sign when your own father tells you to get a life. I thought I actually had friends up here and I spent time with them. I thougth I went out and did things with people. I guess I don't. I guess I'm just a hermit who does nothing but sit at the computer typing up useless messages over AIM and LJ to people who he deludes himself to be his friends. In reality, what are they? Mostly people who pity his friendless existance and are willing to lend an ear to make him feel better.
What is it he wants me to do? Go out and get drunk and laid? Is that the social life he wants? No. He's told me as much.
So what do I want? I want friends. I have them. I want a romantic relationship. I'm waiting for spring quarter to pursue that (you know what they say about springtime...).
So what does it matter that I don't go out all day and night? Why should anyone care? Y'all have your own problems to deal with, don't go inventing mine!
PETER
P.S. Sorry for not posting yesterday, I was busy.
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"I want a romantic relationship"
The RIT "taken, deaf or not interested in boys" mentality seems to have finally hit me. So I'm officially "interested" in no one now.
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Date: 2001-12-10 08:30 am (UTC)1) It's realy not a good thing to have people want you exclusivly for your looks. These are the people who don't have anything to realy offer in a relationship and they're creepy. Realy realy realy creepy. You might want to try instead, people who were first or mainly attracted to you for your apperence. The Latter two shouldn't be hard for you to find. Well, taking into account RIT perhaps it's a bit harder than otherwise. (Although keep in mind your competition is in the quantity not the quality. What was the rule of thumb. You can reject one third of the boys here before they even say anything and another third after one full sentence. I forget who I'm quoting and the %'s might be off) The difference is that someone who only likes you for how you look is incapable of apprecieating who you are, and you're realy nify. Someone who went "ooh, he's cute" and went to go talk to you but also likes you as a person ("ooh he's nice", "ooh he's funny") is prolly actualy worthwhile to be arround.
2) You have as much of a life as I do and I consider myself to have a pretty good one. (I prolly have too much of a life, I get no sleep) Besides which "not going out" means very little when you live in a big building full of teenagers.