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I really like the ornate facade on this building. It's on Montague St. in Brooklyn. I was lucky enough to catch the morning sun on the day I got my first ZipCar.

Today is Wednesday, the day of the week I don't make plans on. Therefore, I stand a chance of getting the a/c out of the window, as well as doing some ironing. I hope I can get to both of these. Maybe do some laundry? Boring, I know, but when I'm busy all weekend, it's hard to get the vital stuff done. The good news is that laundry is highly parallelizable.

I think I may have started posting too often. Sorry. And sorry about apologising so often. Last night, Erin and I went to Fairway, and on the way back I began to crash hard. Maybe it was that I was tired, maybe I was tired of the messed up schedule at work, who knows. I do know that I became a liability and an annoyance at that point. I could argue that I always am, but I know that's not true, so I can kill that loop pretty quickly.
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I need to sleep more and more often. Not getting enough messes up my self-image to an extreme degree. If you've ever seen me inconsolable with negativity, you've likely seen me sleep-deprived. And yet I'm going to Lunacon this weekend. No one ever went broke betting against the wisdom of my decisions.
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What do you do for a quick self-esteem pick-me-up?

The easy answer is, "What you're good at," but if you need such a thing, you have no idea/faith in what you're supposed to be good at. (Or, even worse, that what you're "good" at is too trivially easy to be a skill/talent/je-ne-sais-quoi worth mentioning, after all, if you can do it, can't everyone?)
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So I've learned to notice my cognitive distortions (see link in subject) and combat them. This has shortened the duration and reduced the severity of my depressive swings (not that a regular reader of my LJ would notice...). However, the same tools that allow me to shut down negative thought loops can also strengthen them when something negative happens. It's interesting because my initial response is somewhat neutral but I can feel myself trying to convince me that I should feel bad about it.

Wow, I need to go home rather than go on about this negativity shit.

Be well, all.
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